Sunday, July 01, 2001

wow. it has been so long since i was last here. but... i was talking about it last night with a friend and decided to go ahead and have another poke.

a lot has happened to me lately. i quit my job. i went to florida for over a month. i gave my heart and soul away to a man. he gave it back. i was unemployed (basically) for 3 months. i started doing paint-by-numbers. i got a new job and for the first time in my life, i'm not embarassed to talk about it. (not that i'm GOING to talk about it!)

don't get me wrong, i still stand by the philosophy "my work does not define me." but maybe that will shift at some point in my life.

i've started keeping a journal, of sorts, lately. it's more of an open letter to someone special to me. sometimes it's boring and sometimes i think it's good practice for finally getting started on an idea i have for a story (short story? novel? ). it's such a strange concept to even think about. i feel so self-concious even *mentioning* something like a potential story. i admire people who can just DO stuff and not think about looking foolish. the people who are the most bold usually suck the most! that's not to say, of course, that i am the opposite. no, no, no. i perhaps DO suck, but just don't live in the alternate reality that others do. i'm laughing at how all this must sound.

sunday morning. big sigh.

Friday, February 23, 2001

i went to north carolina for the first time last weekend. it wasn't what i expected... necessarily. once i arrived at the ocean, i was fine. i don't even know how to swim, and honestly, i hate the sun; but being at the ocean in the wintertime is one of my favorite things. there were so many stars there. it's was spectacular -- there's no other word for it.

i saw my friend perform last night for the first time. he's a dancer. it was all kinda silly, but very funny.

Thursday, February 01, 2001

it's been a while since i've been back here. but something happened last night that was just amazing -- another first! i got into a fight with friend over, get this, neil young. yes, innocent neil young. she hates him -- really hates him. i, on the other hand, am obsessed with him. she seemed to think that my endless, mindless babbling about him was me INTENTIONALLY trying to get under her skin. this was not the case. i laughed myself to sleep over it but know this "fight" will go on forever. yikes.

last night was a good night otherwise. actually, a great night. lots of drinking & unexpected sitings.

Friday, December 01, 2000

i always wonder when it's cold out and i'm bundled up if it is really cold out and i'm dressed warmly or if it's just not really cold.

Wednesday, November 29, 2000

there was this stuff at dinner tonight -- some kind of lamb shish kebab (served sizzling, just the way it's intended). the waiter warned us that is was "hard." did he mean tough? did he mean strong? it was both. jimmy managed to eat all of it except for a bit about 6" long. he wrapped it in blue plastic and hid it in my pocket. now i have this turd-like thing in my pocket and can't decide what to do with it. possible options are: leave in the mailbox for roommate to find; leave on floor of apartment (it'll look like cat shit) and pick up and eat for a hearty laugh - and satisfying snack; insert in sock and have it fall out of pant leg at perfect moment; hide in someone's underwear drawer. the possibilites are endless. i remember the first time i ate indian food. it wasn't tonight but i had some weird gelatenous pistachio dessert that made me think of eyeballs. ewww.
i just got off the phone with a friend. we were discussing a quality, or shall i say -trait- of mine that everyone seems to notice -- and have been noticing for at least the past 10 years. i could say it's me simply being bitchy. but stacy, being more diplomatic (or is it?) thinks i'm contentious. let us get a good definition of conentious: likely to cause contention (argument); exhibiting an often perverse and wearisome tendency to quarrels and disputes; see BELLIGERENT. i could agree with that. should i? i'm not sure. point is, i only do it to enhance the conversation and keep things lively. i remember my first online lie like it was 10 seconds ago.